Saturday, August 16, 2014

Doubt

I spent my Saturday at a vendor event hawkin my Thirty-One wares :) I didn't sell a ton but I did sell a cash and carry item and get a pre-sale for the September special. I also booked a party for a young lady who is getting married and wants matching bags for her bridesmaids. I told her what the total would be and her mom said, "You should just do a party, this nice lady will help you get free stuff. " It was cute (and I definitely will help her get free stuff!).

After I got home it was time to hunker down and finish my huge 150 point paper. It's a compilation of 5 essays we did and some other learning. I'm sure it's fine but man....every time I turn in one of these assignments, I feel like I'm going to throw up. I'm so worried I messed up or forgot something. I always do fine but the nerves are bad!

I hate that I doubt myself. It's not like I don't do my best. I guess it is because, at this point, it's totally for real. This is what will help me accomplish my goals and I worry because I don't want to mess it up.

But I could do without feeling like I'm going to be sick every Saturday when I submit the paper for that week! :)

I have to do my practice abstract for my mini writing course and a final reflection and then these classes are over. Crazy! If I finish them both tomorrow (which is the plan), I will have a whole week off and then my next classes begin. And I go back to work. And my hubby will be out of town for two weeks. At back to school time! Serenity now! haha

1 comment:

  1. I can relate to the doubt. I always felt like the dumbest smart person in my cohort even though I deserved to be there and even though my colleagues appreciated my feedback as much as I appreciated theirs. I always have a hard time seeing myself as others see me. Soak in those good grades and remind yourself that you can do it!

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