Thursday, October 24, 2013

Tired

I took the day off last Friday to go to an appointment for The Youngest. I have felt entirely off balance, behind and just not myself since. 

I don't know what it is. I haven't wanted to do ANYTHING school-related. I don't want to say I'm losing my spark because I love being there and with my kids when I am there. But I'm not digging the outside work expectations. I really want to institute a set work time and forget bringing things home. I get to school at 7 a.m. most days (kiddos start at 8:30) and I leave between 4-5:30 depending upon the day. There is plenty of time for me to be more productive at work....but I feel like I'm not.

It's almost like burn-out....but its not. I don't know. I think the changes from the start of the year, the shifting around, the MEAP testing...has just all added up and I'm drained. I would love to spend my entire weekend sleeping. Not kidding. I'm that tired.

I even wondered if I had been forgetting my meds and if that was affecting where I'm currently sitting. But that's not it either. I always take them at night with my leg pills and since I haven't been dancing all over my bed at night....I know it isn't that.

The Husband is going out of town for the weekend and I'm hopeful to catch up on everything tomorrow night because he'll be gone. Then I can spend my weekend doing what I want to do and having fun with Thirty-One. (And don't think adding Thirty-One onto my docket has caused this--its more fun than work and actually is a nice escape from the crap in my life I don't want to face at the moment.) 

Maybe I'll just spend all day Saturday in bed :)



The Caffeinated Teacher

2 comments:

  1. I can truly relate. Even though I am LOVING this school year and my kids (especially after last year, worst year EVER), I am so over the excessive hours at home. Last year I worked compulsively and obsessively all. the. time. just trying to figure out something, anything, that would work with my classes. Luckily I don't have to work myself out of desperation anymore, and the lesson planning is so much more fun knowing that most of what I put together will go as planned. But as much as I'm enjoying myself, I just can't devote so much of my outside time anymore. I feel like I'm coming back to life, and I want to actually get to live my life and enjoy the things I like to do outside of teaching. Not to mention cleaning my house!

    Go for that Saturday of sleeping, girl! You deserve it!

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  2. I feel the same way. Can't explain it. Maybe it is the beginning of burn out

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