It's hard to believe my summer break is just about half over. I haven't done any planning or purchasing for 2013-2014 because, believe it or not, here on Tuesday, July 9, I still do not have any idea what grade or school I will be working in this fall. I am to the point that I don't even care anymore. Sad, isn't it?
I have put myself into a position where I am content to just be who I am right now. I am doing a lot of reading (pleasure, professional and spiritual) and focusing upon the job opportunity that inadvertently presented itself to me. My 2nd interview was initially supposed to be yesterday or today but due to scheduling issues on the panel's side, it will be on Thursday instead. Then on Friday, I will also meet with two Very Important People from this school and at that point, presumably, I will know if I will even need to worry about being placed by my district or not.
Part of me still can't believe this school is as interested in me as they seem to be. Alas, I am also enjoying it. I DO know what I'm doing and someone sees that. It's validating. I'm sorry to be so vague about it--I just don't want to jinx anything but I promise if I am offered this contract, I will be posting about it (and shouting it!) from the rooftops! It would be such an amazing position, truly. I have dreamed about it. That's how much I want it. Alas, I have to get past the interview and the Big Scary Meeting on Friday first! To say I am nervous is the understatement of the century. I've felt so beaten down by how my district treats its teachers that I've felt less than confident in myself lately. I don't want to blow this interview by not being myself. So I have to relax, pray and just share the knowledge that I have.
I have lots of things I'd like to do for school but refuse to do so until I know where and what I will be teaching. It's just too hard for me to plan "generically" because I tend to do things so differently depending upon the grade I have. And if Super Huge Job Opportunity comes through, it will be an entirely different type of planning!
The funny thing is, I planned to spend the month of July at my cabin. I've been planning this since LAST summer. Alas, this job opportunity and The Oldest's preparations for moving away to college out of state have hindered that some and we're home because I need Skype for my interviews and I can't use Skype up north due to shoddy internet service. I'm not upset about this, I just think its funny--that whole saying about the best laid plans and whatnot.
Needless to say in 4-5 weeks, my life is going to change big time, no matter what. Either I'm changing jobs in a huge way or I'm at least moving to a new school and possibly grade. The Oldest is moving 9 hours away to go to school. Middle Child will be in Middle School for the first time and The Youngest will, also for the first time, be in a school without Middle Child. It's a lot of transition happening all at once. If the Super Huge Job Opportunity pans out, it will add even more change to the mix. It's kind of intimidating yet thrilling all at once. I just pray about it--if this opportunity landed in my lap the way that it did by God's hands, then so be it. I am ready and willing to make the changes and (bless him) so is The Husband.
He is by far the most supportive person I've ever had in my life and I am so lucky for that. So, so lucky. By the end of this week, I think I am going to have some news one way or the other. It's scary yet exciting all rolled into one bundle of nerves (namely, me!).